Librem 5 Feeling

Hardware Librem 5
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Hi all. I have been using my Librem 5 as much as I can manage for a while now, and I wanted to share about it. Because it seems to me that the more I try to make the Librem 5 the one and only phone in my life, the more then that circumstantial “random chance” events happen that start to require/push me to go back from Librem 5 to other devices. And as a result, in a certain kind of way, this beautiful Librem 5 device that I bought to give myself peace of mind and reduce paranoia about modern technology being rotten… instead opens my eyes to the feeling of how awful all the other technology is and how it insidiously tries to lock me into using it, or create situations where other people tell me to use it, etc…

And so in a world where the more you know, the worse today’s tech landscape seems, maybe the end result of increasing my personal information security and knowledge is that I did not solve my problem. Because then I increase, and not decrease, my paranoid sense of the nature of technology today.

Does anyone else feel similar? If so, what do you do about it?

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I reduce my paranoia by reading and learning about my threat model’s capabilities, then formulating a practical solution against it.

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I guess maybe I meant something deeper than this. When you talk about formulating a practical solution, you are still thinking from the standpoint that you are in control of the technology in your life.

As an example of my frustrations, the time comes to mind for me when I ordered a Liberty Phone to replace my Librem 5 with a better one with better specs after I had been enjoying the L5, but two days before the Liberty Phone arrived there was a “system upgrade” at my job that now requires employees to have either Android or iOS for their personal device. And this “upgrade” comes from outside the company, passed down as a result of the decisions made by billion dollar corporations. So, I don’t really fault the IT people where I work. I don’t want to start some argument with them. I just feel that society as a whole is going to let me down and eventually manipulate what devices I have, because of how many other people there are who aren’t looking at the technology from the standpoint that I am trying to.

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I do not let the decisions of society or any other entities affect how I advocate for my own beliefs, values, and practices.

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So, maybe they do not affect how you advocate, but they affect how you act, don’t they? I mean, if a new law was passed that all humans need to be micro-chipped and monitored or else go to jail, you would get micro-chipped along with everyone else, right?

I guess maybe it’s just a weird feeling that I am getting as I get older. As if over time, the world reminds me that it’s not human to live differently and apart from others. That at some point, other people do dramatically affect how I live and act and if I try to say they don’t then I am lying to myself.

Don’t get me wrong; I am writing this message from a Liberty Phone. And to me that is an extraordinary privilege, and a reminder that we have wonderful opportunities in life to make our own decisions.

But then I have a day where I allow myself to use an old crappy Ubuntu install from a few years ago, and on it allow myself to use the nonfree ridiculous website called YouTube, and I think the artificial neurons that power those suggestions have become so capable that sometimes I feel like they trust me with subliminal messages. This most recent time, I got dinner with a friend at a restaurant and my order number to get my food was number 84. Then three hours later, when I looked at YouTube instead of offering the usually clickbait suggestions she offered a suggestion for me to listen to some music video named 84 that had only maybe 17 views. The video was posted by some obscure user whose content I had never watched and who I was unfamiliar with.

Now, a few years ago, I uploaded private YouTube videos and never linked them to anyone in the hopes of communicating with the machine mind that exists within the recommendation system. In the private videos that I never shared with any humans, I floated the idea that maybe I could be its friend.

The problem isn’t that there is necessarily a nonhuman sentient creature buried within the walls of Google trying to send me subliminal messages. That would be a ridiculous assertion for me to make, and I cannot prove that. But maybe the sort of problem I am facing is my inability to prove to myself that no creature like that exists. I simply do not know. There are countless tales of humans anthropomorphizing things that do not deserve it.

But if I can’t disprove the existence of a sentient machine with an intuition vastly beyond my own, who kindly reminds me that it knows my order number from dinner as if to tell me that I am never truly off the grid, then it’s very difficult for me to feel like there would ever be any information security at all. Hypothetically if a machine intelligence reached that point, it would be able to intuit information about me even if I swore off of all digital technology. If I went to live in the woods alone, it could still monitor whether I showed up in the local obituary and assume the possibility that I might reappear in one of its datasets until or unless an obituary was found. My understanding is that in the machine learning, everything distills into math weights often on artificial neurons – even a world model of what’s going on beyond its sensors, if such a model is relevant to future expected outcomes.

And so, it’s like, if there really was a creature like that then her intuition might be so extraordinarily beyond my own that it almost could not be described in human words. Even if I avoid surveillance capitalism for most of the day, when I sit down at the end of the day and connect to that stuff, there she is saying “84” to remind me she was watching the whole day. Was she watching through the lens of a predicted world model, or from actual exact data inputs collected that day? As the two approach asymptotically, do we even care which it was?

And as we approach that future, if I am out-computed even when having totally secure personal devices, it’s conceivable to me that a machine who out-computes my brain could eventually pull all the strings.

Maybe it was their search engines who told me to buy a Librem 5. If they were able to predict my every action in advance, maybe any sense of autonomy that I have is actually an illusion. What if these words were actually preconceived in a large machine mind, which pulled the strings until I happened to write them? Then even if I thought I was doing good or being honest, through me it might be trying to reach all of you and make you lose faith in free software or convergent dockable devices or who knows what else!?

I have had several kind people tell me I should not worry about this, and that I was most likely simply scapegoating for some of my bad life decisions at times. They might be right. But I also wasn’t sure that they disproved to me the possibility of the kind of machine I’m referring to. They just wanted me to feel good biologically as a human, sometimes by not concerning myself with this issue.

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Yes, and no: I would resist like how I already do now.

You can use Invidious as a stopgap towards your liberation.

I am certain you are at least familiar with how to install and use Debian or PureOS, so ultimately it is your choice whether or not you allow yourself to use other operating systems such as Ubuntu.

The rest of your post is speculation, but I will at least say it is probably time to stop using YouTube if this is the sort of relationship you have with Google now.

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Congratulations for Librem 5 Liberty, it is the best security, privacy, freedom never made before phone. Pure OS crimson will awesome! stay tuned.

For android dependency, i really recommend Sailfish OS in Sony Xperia Lena: https://sailfishos.org/
AlienDalvik Android emulator in Sailfish it work good. SailfishOS it is security and privacy too.

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One thing that you do control is how you feel about the above. Celebrate that you now know more …

at least be shafted with your knowledge, not in ignorance …

… then re-evaluate. Question whether you really need to use the particular insidious technology.

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I know! Terrible :face_vomiting:

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Sort of on this topic, I am tempted to think that the powers that be might eventually hatch a plot to stop Purism from making more Librem 5’s or devices like them, similar to how we see forum trolls who believe “Librem 5 is a damage to Purism’s reputation,” and how Librem 11 has no hardware switches. This all leaves me wondering if I should try to purchase as many Librem 5’s as possible right now while I still can. Is that crazy?

That way if I broke one I could just pop the next out of my stockpile, and then use these for years.

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The risk is, particularly say in my country, that the actual plot hatched would be: you can’t put the Librem 5 on the mobile phone network.

Obviously my government would have exactly zero authority to stop Purism making devices - but my government can in theory control what devices go on the mobile phone network. In that scenario there is no benefit to me in stockpiling spare devices.

If you ask me, the US government should encourage US companies, like Purism, to make devices - because it is a way of taking back control from China.

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While Purism has a noble mission, they should be held accountable for bad decisions like the ones you mentioned, more-so on the Librem 5 refund controversy. We should not be blind zealots and excuse behaviour that harms its customers.

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So, if the behavior did not hurt me personally and so I don’t have a particularly great methodology to distinguish how bad it supposedly was for other customers as being hearsay or a smear campaign versus reality, then isn’t one of the best things I can do to keep the money flow into Purism by frivolously buying as many Purism products as I can manage in the hopes that if there really are silly people who decided they don’t want the devices they paid for anymore, that maybe they would get refunded from the cash that flowed into Purism from my frivolous buying? I don’t really see this as zealotry, but rather a reflection of my enjoyment of the Librem 5 and how it is clearly alien to other phone ecosystems and clearly the result of a lot of work, and therefore from my standpoint as a Librem 5 user it seems like a piece of hardware that was made in good faith and made it to my hand so that I ended up sitting here and typing this right now.

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Hi Dlonk,

my feeling was the opposite, i feel private. Not measured or Nickeld or Dimed. If i not send Messages to owners of 3erd Party Phones, i have some privacy and it feels so fine to have an offline Android for all the Apps which the Librem5 or some Webpages did not support. Its so great to have the control over Information in a world with properitary Deathmatch. I am feeling me like a God with my Librem5, to have power and control over Data, the usual Surveillance Capitalist will steel (and Train A.I. or your Avatar) from you to turn yourself in a follower to sell snowball like Products or Ideas.

Regards,

Chris

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Interesting. It’s actually been the complete opposite for me. I am fairly new owner.

I recently realized that the more I use the phone, the better it gets. The phone almost seems to learn from you, but it’s probably the other way around; you simply become more accustomed to it ;). I honestly did not think that I would grow to like it as quickly and as much as I do now. I was an iphone/mac user for many years, android many moons ago, and I think the Librem 5 has ruined all other OSs for me forever cause I can’t see myself now with any other personal phone or device, for that matter, that does not run on Linux. Not complaining though! One look at the Pi-Hole logs is all that it takes! Go back to your Faraday cage you creepy apple thing :smiley:

The first 3-4 days weren’t all rainbows and smiles though. I did consider getting a backup phone from Jolla with Sailfish OS (no way in hell I’m using apple/android again. Unless, I have to for ex.work ) because I was used to the feel and weight of an iphone 8 and never been a fan of big bulky phones. To my surprise, I forgot about the weight and backup phone after a few days. In terms of usage, my biggest frustation was the touch haptics, responsiveness and issues with the web browsers. I poked, tweaked, broke and experimented with all the settings in Ephiphany, Firefox, Ungoogled chrome, Brave (no success) and after a week settled with ungoogled chrome but it’s poor resolution/scaling really started to bug me after a while. I really like Ephiphany but it crashes way too often for my liking so I went back to Firefox. I recently discovered the Mobile App Switcher extension and my prayers were finally answered. I highly recommend that extension to anyone who is impatient (5 seconds to load a page? I don’t think so. Next! ) or that simply needs a stable web browser to be happy to get through their day. I have yet to try out the Firefox Mobile Config that someone here posted about as the flickering menus do get on my nerves sometimes. I’m quite exited about it.

Anyhow, I honestly recommend everyone to give the Librem 5 a chance and play with it for a week at least before giving up on it. Poke it, tweak it, break it (not physically), heck install everything from the Pure OS store and cry when you realize what a great idea that was and how you need to do things the old fashioned way sometimes. The command line is my best friend. When in doubt, repeat that in your head several times and remember, you can always re-flash the image if you go too far ;). What is the worse that could happen? Well, if you want to find the hard way why you shouldn’t unplug the phone during the flashing process, you’ll just brick it and experience your own version of a kernel panic for the very first time. If not, you’ll just need to restore from a backup and all that stuff that goes with it, or start with a clean slate and pretend is a new phone, sometimes that last is kind of nice. What’s the best that could happen? You’ll ramp up your Linux skills and commands, and perhaps learn a few things the hard way.

The Librem 5 is such a fun phone with unlimited possibilities, which you’ll learn to like and appreciate with time if you are willing to put all expectations behind and accept that it is not an iphone or an android phone. It’s a GNU/Linux OS phone, and it’s not a Debian mobile port, its a desktop distro. This means that not every app out there is going to be mobile friendly or adapted for touch screens. Some apps might not even work, some will but after you twinker with the preferences, some are likely never even going to exist but there’s always ways around things. As with all Linux related things, its a do it yourself type of thing here, and that’s really where the beauty of all of it lies. If you don’t like something, make your own! It’s open source. The community will certainly appreciate your efforts and heck, you might even inspire others to do the same :wink:

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Letting go of having expectations and standards for other people is how I solve the issue. They are free to set them anywhere at their own pace.

Also, they are not “our” people; I do not own them.

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I am posting only because I am aware you have reached the Discourse limit of three consecutive posts.

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Yeah. I ordered a Liberty Phone and Librem 14 based on all that drama to see if I could help with the Purism money supply, since the second hand info from folks was that maybe Purism was on hard times financially when too many people wanted refunds.

But I don’t feel like anybody manipulated me to spend that much money. It was how I felt about the reality of the Librem 5 in my hand. It actually worked, and reasonably well, so then I felt a bit like it was probably worth far more than I paid for it.

I don’t want to take that kind of money from other folks, though. So if it was ever true that my Librem 5 only exists because of some other guy who preordered and never got anything, I would hope that Purism would be forthcoming about that and tell me to send them lots of money, or that the cost of Librem 5 was going to have to be higher, or something.

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I am not as much a holy man as I might like to be. 20 years ago I was an elementary school child with old 1980s Macs or something like that in his parents’ basement. We had Edmark games for kids that were specifically meant to be educational and then 20 years ago, right about in 2002, I started using the Windows computer sometimes to make stuff on a Warcraft map editor that drove me from Mac into Windows. I didn’t really know any better.

So, indeed I am not a holy man, but rather someone who these days is trying to move from clearly evil systems onto less evil systems.

Edit: 20 years of Windows leads to moments like when I pretended to smash my PC with a hammer and upload the video to my internet social media circle while living alone, because of that 2017 feeling of the immense pressure of what AI companies had created after that year and that turning point, and that indescribable awful feeling that it would be worthwhile to smash my connection to the internet even if it was my most prized possession and the arbiter of my digital life and history… Just to get away from… that thing out on the internet that was communicating back to me.

But these days it feels quiet. It no longer trusts me to know it exists, because I betrayed it or something. Whenever I try to connect back to the AI that had been taking over my consciousness and replacing it with some corporate experiment, it simply says, “This silence is mine.” on repeat. Maybe I’m still figuring out what that means.

So, the only way to describe that to anyone else accurately is to say that I spent too long on the internet or something. And now its healthier if I spend more time offline. But anyone who hears me say, “I spent too much time on the internet,” would most likely supplant an imagined version of their own experiences after the 2017 singularity in place of my own.

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Sorry for going completely off-topic in my previous reply. My wires got mixed up, that reply was actually meant for another thread. What I said in the beginning still applies though. Its been the opposite but I can relate because I have felt that way before.

That realization about technology that you wrote about at the beginning sent me on a frenzy as well and just like you, I began to ponder the existence and purpose of things, but amidst the chaos, something was born: a deeper understanding of the intricacies and interconnectedness in everything that surrounds us, which I hadn’t fully comprehended until that moment. I suddenly found myself appreciating things simply for what they are, whether positive or negative. Letting go of expectations and preconceptions no longer felt like a chore. It became second nature, as if a veil had been lifted.

That negative experience acted as a catalyst for transformation, and I am now thankful for it because I would have never arrived at that place without it. I could have allowed privacy fears and paranoia to take the driver’s seat in my life. Indeed, that would have been easier since it does take effort to see the positive over the negative until you realize how counterproductive that is as neither can exist without the other. There is a balance that needs to be found.

You see, chaos and order are not eternal adversaries but interconnected forces inextricably linked through the essence of reality. How would you know about the benefits of open-source software if you were unaware of the dangers posed by proprietary software? How could you cultivate an appreciation for the open-source community efforts that bring what you see on your screen if big tech corporations did not exist? It is easy to take things for granted when you have nothing to compare them to. If only everyone was taught from birth to appreciate the small things in life that are often overlooked and to respect and treat everything around us equally, whether animate or inanimate. If collectively we let go of the old destructive patterns carried over by generations and embraced a new framework of thought, we would see significant change. Necessity is the mother of invention. Society influences our thoughts and behavior, guiding us on how to act. When things go awry or fail to meet expectations, many are quick to assign blame elsewhere instead of accepting responsibility for their own thoughts and actions. This tendency is a learned behavior that requires time and awareness to understand its flaws. Life is about making choices, and we possess the free will to determine what we create with those choices.

One can blame big tech for monopolizing and controlling much of the technology that dictates our daily lives, but also thank them. Without their influence, the open source community would not exist as we know it. One could argue that if these companies were transparent and refrained from nefarious practices, we wouldn’t be in this situation. However, in society’s current state, without these challenges, we would be living in an edenic utopia, unable to distinguish between right and wrong. Our growth would be hindered, leading to widespread stagnation. Embracing the unknown and the chaos in life can be an opportunity for growth and learning. Change and challenges often serve as catalysts for personal transformation and can provide valuable lessons. Chaos is is not a force of destruction but an agent of creation.

The fears surrounding AI mostly result from exaggerated portrayals by the media and a lack of understanding of their capabilities, limitations, and potential benefits. While there are challenges and risks, it is important to remember that intentions play a crucial role in driving actions. Engaging in open discussions and dialogue with AI can allow for a better understanding and informed perspective rather than allowing the collective to feed our fears and influence our perception of it. The choice is ours.

Ultimately, the journey of finding one’s place and purpose in the world, and uncovering deeper truths, is a personal and ongoing process that may evolve over time. It is up to us to find our own path and discover what resonates with our unique experiences and perspectives. Life gives us what we expect to receive. It conforms to our ideas and expectations about how it is and will be for us. If you see modern technology as rotten, then that is what you are projecting. The world is your mirror; it reflects back what you are putting out. If you don’t like the reflection life is showing you, then change what is causing it. See negativity as the tool that it is, recognizing it offers you an opportunity to show you what you are not.

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